Need of Refuge and Strength

Lord,

You are my refuge and strength.

Life has become complex. The needs, confusions, conflicts, and weakness of life confront me. They seem to want to devour me and leave nothing left.

Lord, you are my refuge and strength

Things are flooding me right now. It is hard to focus Lord because so many things scream for my attention. I am not going well in prioritizing right now. Everything seems important. Should I pray or work? If I work which of the thousand things should I work on? If I pray which of the thousand things should I pray for and how should I pray for them?

Lord, you are my refuge and strength

Help me to just accept my smallness. Help me see that you ask me only to be sane, stable, and spiritual today. Others want me to do things I cannot do. You ask me only to do what you have made me able to do. You tell me you will hold all things together. Lord, help me trust you will not let me drown today and if I do drown it will be for some ultimate good.

Lord, you are my refuge and strength.

Returning to Sanity

Lord, I want to return to a better pattern
I want to return to sanity and stability
I want to return to feeling your embrace
Lord have mercy

It seems like the door of choas has been opened again
Events happen that seem to be from the twight zone
Insanity is incarnated
I fear it so much
I get hurt from it so much
I don't know what to do
Why do things become crazy?

I have been trying to remember sanier days
I have been striving to remember when things were more stable
They all seem far away
They all ended with some type of insane

The insanity today is like windows on the floor
Not really dangerous just strange to see
But they destroy the idea that one is secure
Lord you alone are my security

Lord help me be sane and stable today
Help me to govern every word and response
Help me be filled with your spirit
Help my brothers and sisters to also be sane and stable today
Help them to be filled with your Spirit
Help us find your pathway to peace

Prayer on a tired day

Bone and mind are weary today
Lord have mercy on me
I hear your word and it encourages my heart
Lord have mercy on me today
I encounter insanity from my friends
Lord have mercy on me today
Mind and bone are weary and worn
Lord have mercy on me today

Praise to the Triune God

Father I adore you for loving with an eternal heart of wild passion and care.

Messiah Jesus I adore you for being willing to sacrafice more than I can be understood by mere finite beings for mere finite beings.

Holy Spirit, wind of God, you have brought life from death, light from darkness, and understanding where there was only ignorance for all these gifts I adore you.

Triune God, infinite, eternal, and being beyond all being.

Prayer for help when accused

Dear Lord,

Why is living in peace with other so hard? Why do Christians have such a hard time getting along? Why is it that we cannot agree to disagree in an agreeable way?

Lord, it hurts so bad when those who I expect to love me accuse me and do not trust me. Lord is there some sin in me that tempts them to treat me this way? Am I blind to some reality that is really in need of repentance? Lord help me see my hidden faults.

Lord be with those who accuse me. Help them to know your blessing and your peace. Grant that they may be able to communicate with me without fear. May I love them with your love.

Lord give peace to your people. Help us to become peacemakers. Lord as much as it depends on me let me live in peace with all people and especially my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Lord give me your peace and fill my heart with your love. Lord forgive me my sins. Lord heal my wounded heart.

Prayers in times of being tired

Lord,

You know that I am tired. You know that it seems from my perspective that the wind has not been at my back for a long time.

I know that things could be worst. I know that what I have is only by your grace. But you know that it has seemed to be a uphill battle and that I feel like if I let go then I will fall into the darkness below.

The problem is that I am tired and do not know if I can keep going. I am at the end of my strength. The fear of falling has kept me going. But fear can only keep you strong so long.

So, Lord you will have to be my strength. You will have go hold me up. If I fall you will have to fix my bones. So Lord, be with me now. Either give me some wind at my back and help to keep me from falling or be ready to catch me because I do not think I can keep this up much longer.

I know that you understand it all. You understand why you have not sent wind. My failures and faults give you more than justified reasons to not help me. I have no right to expect wind from you. You do not owe me wind at my back. You know that a lack of wind has made me love you and not the wind. But by your grace I hope you will help me.

I know you always help me. Yet, now I ask for special help and special grace. Help me feel your embrace and in that embrace give me your strength.

Thank you for listening to my musings. You are always with me. You love me more than my greatest dreams of love. Help me to rest in that love even if I fall through lack of strength.

Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on us all

Help all those who are weak this day. Help all those who are at the end of their strength. Help all those who feel they are coming to an end of themselves. Help us eternal strength with your strength. May we give you glory because we are not destroyed.