Prayers in times of being tired

Lord,

You know that I am tired. You know that it seems from my perspective that the wind has not been at my back for a long time.

I know that things could be worst. I know that what I have is only by your grace. But you know that it has seemed to be a uphill battle and that I feel like if I let go then I will fall into the darkness below.

The problem is that I am tired and do not know if I can keep going. I am at the end of my strength. The fear of falling has kept me going. But fear can only keep you strong so long.

So, Lord you will have to be my strength. You will have go hold me up. If I fall you will have to fix my bones. So Lord, be with me now. Either give me some wind at my back and help to keep me from falling or be ready to catch me because I do not think I can keep this up much longer.

I know that you understand it all. You understand why you have not sent wind. My failures and faults give you more than justified reasons to not help me. I have no right to expect wind from you. You do not owe me wind at my back. You know that a lack of wind has made me love you and not the wind. But by your grace I hope you will help me.

I know you always help me. Yet, now I ask for special help and special grace. Help me feel your embrace and in that embrace give me your strength.

Thank you for listening to my musings. You are always with me. You love me more than my greatest dreams of love. Help me to rest in that love even if I fall through lack of strength.

Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy on us all

Help all those who are weak this day. Help all those who are at the end of their strength. Help all those who feel they are coming to an end of themselves. Help us eternal strength with your strength. May we give you glory because we are not destroyed.