Open the eyes of my heart

Eternal friend and lover,

You who are outside of time help me deal with time.

Another year has passed. In some ways we have made progress. In other ways we have suffered losses. We have more than we had a year ago in some ways and we have less than we had a year ago in other ways. There has been no massive success and no massive failure. Just living in the mediocre reality of getting by and not seeing goals reached nor seeing dreams die.

It is hard to live in grey. It is hard to pray in grey. It is hard to praise in grey. Yet, that is where you have called me to live is in the kingdom of the grey. In the shadow lands. And I am getting older and have seen more and more of my friends die. I am mortal and there is a good chance I will die in the grey. I will leave behind a grey legacy. That was not what I had hoped.

So, give me a love for what you have ordained in my life. Help me to see where I need to learn to pray and love better. I know that I am a long way from trusting and caring enough. Change my heart. Magnify yourself in my soul. Let my spirit rejoice in your love.

Open the eyes of my heart Lord that I might see you high and lifted up.